~ Oc ~~

i dont know why he meant so much to me
or even whether he was a he
an orange and white tail and so many fins
sailing like the tail of kite behind him

i found him being chased around a pet shop
by a dark blue fighter fish who was nipping his tail
so i had to rescue him

i brought him the biggest fish bowl i could find and a bubble filter
it was so beautiful
he would swim around like an ornament
his tails like a wedding gown
he was my pet. my dog.
replacer.

after a few days he started to get ill,
little sick fish who couldnt swim so well
his little tail dragging along
like a long heavy white and orange veil

the man in the pet shop said i might try feeding him a pea
so i thawed one out, cut it into the smallest pieces and placed them on the floor of his fish bowl
but after swimming around a little more
he was sick and chucked them up
the chewed up pea parts landing bright green coloured on his fish bowl floor

he died slowly
like an old man
slower and less and less able to swim his little body

the last stage took forever
the fish bowl and extravagent rest home
then coffin.

eventually i threw him to the sea
which ate him up greedily
he had 17 names or more but i cant remember one of them
but i do still remember
little fan tail white orange and golden fighter fish nipped bride